Mary Roney, your delinquent account is being prepared for collections.

I have to decide between having enough money for the roadtrip or school. This scares the hell out of myself, my family and my parents because I’ll choose traveling over anything. 

Fuck school, fuck money, fuck mono and fuck doing what everyone thinks I should be doing. All I want is to travel. I don’t want to take another creative writing class so I can read other apathetic, uninspired peoples work that sucks. I don’t want to take Math so I can stare blankly at the board while everyone else seems to know what the hell is going on. I don’t want to drive home in the pouring Portland rain and wonder what else is out there.

What I do want. I want miles. I want to claim the minutes, the seconds of my life. I want to see the worlds biggest ball of yarn. I want to put my feet in the Atlantic. I want to watch the sunset in Santorini, and I want to see the Northern Lights in the Netherlands. I want to get high as fuck in Amsterdam. I want to sit in the “classy” McDonalds in Germany and drink wine. I want to learn to surf in Hawaii and I want to eat at Cafe Gratitude in SoCal. I want to ride a donkey to the bottom of the Grand Canyon and I want to kayak the Colorado river. I want to go spelunking in Mexico and I want to scuba dive in the Great Barrier Reef. 

You can’t tell me I wouldn’t get an education from this - because I would learn more out there than I ever would inside a windowless classroom. The only difference is I wont get a piece of paper saying I have a degree.

I know what I want. I just don’t know how to get it.

/rant

Best,

Mary